Alkaline smiles

These past two quotes are going to have to be my mantras for the foreseeable future. after ending a relationship due to uncertainty, i know i have to be strong in the decision i made. for both of us. i know i’ve wrecked possible friendships and hurt people in the past by wavering in my resolution.

to be completely honest with myself, i don’t know what i want. for a statement with no foothold, it feels good to say it. in my last relationship, i wavered for nearly six years. sure i learned things along the way and it wasn’t all bad, but it feels like wasted time as far as getting to know myself better. and today it feels worth it just to have learned a lesson (albeit a long one). although this recent relationship was great, i know that if i’m not completely happy and still have my doubts then it’s better to just end it. to see what else is out there.

getting older really isn’t so bad, this whole learning lessons on your own feels pretty good today.